Dream

Is something Im hoping I dream about one of d happiest thing tat ever happen.. I love the way the dream act.. D dream tat after so long it never happen.. I know d thing between us.. Really d thing is stil thr n I stil there n I strongly believe it.. No matter hw d world turn in n out.. I'm stil standing stag here.. Doremi always

is stil here.. waititng.. silently..

hoping tat u wil be bec.. into the palace tat love u d most..

i really.. love all about u.. love all is u..

but.. loving u now.. is all i can do and not doing it..

loving u in my heart.. but i cannot get near to u..

i love and i do love..

i i i.. love til where the no roads seems a end..

no time seems forever..

til no more thn no more..

u siad.. u hope there is some1 tat wil understand u even u are not talking.. i think. i can do so.. loving u always.. love love..

I saw ur miscall in d middle of d nite.. I was cry nervous.. Vry nervous.. It was thn 0030.. I keep calling until I dunno hw many calls I made.. Is too much.. I was nvr in tat situation whr I cal til I dunno hw many.. I dunno y im lik tat.. I fal asleep bout 3am.. Until thn sure the is more thn hundreds of calls.. I dunno.. I fal asleep.. I wak up bout 6 o 7 n start cal agn.. Until around 9 u and.. U said u r in his hs n d conversation las less thn a min.. I dunno izit worth it.. Call so many n d conversation tat last nt thn a min.. N u r at his place.. It torturing me.. I hop 1 day 1 day ebb u read dis.. U wil knw hw is my feeling towards u.. He much hurt had u gave me.. Hw much pain I bare w it for so lonng.. Tears is all I had nw..

I can't stand d way u reply me.. Short pointless n always only tat few words.. Yes u dun lik tat guy so wat 4 u think of his feeling.. He is a great pretender.. He sucks n u knw it bt y keep letting him ruin ur life.. Until wat steps of life would u lik he be in??
I dun gt it do I prefer nt to reply the.. Is hard 4 u I knw bt it is harder and lots more hard feeling 4 me tat probably won understand cz I nor out w a gal so late hug a gal hold a gal hand o kiss thm.. Is a feeling tat dabie could t understand..

all is me

another day another dawn..
i stil missing u..

alots of feeling running through..
i dunno hw can u enjoy ur life..

i really dun gt it..
i dunno hw and how u can enjoy ur life..

i am stil in the pain and always will stil in this road that never paint-less..
i stil holding the love tigh inside my fist.. i love all of me and all of me i love u..

tears stil drops as i misses u..

heart stil in a pain when i misses u..

how much long to the days in my dream to be true..

i dunno.. but with that silly heart i have..

i will wait..

wait til no one willing to wait for the time..

i loves u so much n i will continue to love so..

sssss

i found the truth..

truth that u stil have me.. truth that will nt lead me to anything else but stil waiting for u..

i do and i do.. never have the delay in answering this Q..
i love all parts of u and i hope u grow up from there..

yesh.. tat is me.. i love how the things work between us..
so much things and so much craps happen..

have ur eye wide open.. love is nt as easy as it seen cause.. we both make the mistake..

love me and love u.. bie
i miss u..

i wane hug u and alaways hugging u..
i nvr let other holds my hands..
i never let other have their hand s on my shoulder or even tears..
he is nt a guy tat suite u..
bie come bec asap..

there a silly waiting for u..

hi..
i miss u..

i still misses u.. very much..
he is saying morning to u which i will do everyday..
i stil wan to do so..

i love u..
i love evry part and never love who u are o who u were..
u are u..
we change according to situation and our perspective to d thing tat we undergo..

i dun change much.. mayb u din c it..
u will c it.. dear.. i stil want u to c it..

i love u u.. our inner self we never change.. tats our most trueself..
tat is d dabie i love and tat d dabie i want..

bie bie.. i love u.. <3

kch 2nd

it been d 2nd day bec here..
i stil misses u so much..

it been almost a month and i stil missing u..
i love my attitude..
d way i stay strong holding things i like..
d way i stay stubborn holdings things i love..

yesh.. i wil hold it strong.. i love u..
i will hold it tight because u are my one..

no matter how much d world change.. howmuch d things outside is lik..
i knw some part of u will never change.. some part yesh..
and now.. d part tat change chnage dramatically..

i love myself but i really love u more..
doremi..

is it..
im bec in kuching now..

i stil brg some part of our memories bec here.. bringing it always..
is d small little things tat will disappear easily broken easily and lost easily if ful attention is not at it..

so the thing is d little heart tat i gave u.. 25 dec 2009..
i wil brg it along n teach myself how to protect this little heart while u are not here..

doremi.. dududu lululu~~~

The night

This is d nite tat i first talk to tat male.. I duno wat happen..
Yeshbi wan talk to u but.. Reli.. I cannot approach u.. I cannot get near to u le..
Jz nw was rain and i all worry about u.. Hop u have ur ella w u..
I reli wan to tak k of u lik wat we use to be.. Love and love and love about u.. Please.. Love urself lik how i love u
I reli wil and hate him forever.. U wil c dis blog oneday..
Bie i love u forever d.. Doremi dududu lululu.. Love u always

it is very late now.. where are u??

out with those people again??

tis is kl.. nvr lik kch.. is so hard and so nt gud here..

i hope u knw d risk u are facing.. i hope and i pray u are always safe..

i love u and i do care..

i check every seconds for ur present in house or not??

loving u.. hell sure i stil love u.. is dangerous out there and go bec home..

always doremi.. love u..

I told

I told u i will b so busy til sep.. Tats d only thomgs i ask for.. For d peripd i nvr said i will
Let u learn how. is those fwen tat comtaminate ur mind pollute ur idea of thought.. Bie thy r nt gud d fwen. all of theor intership is nt gud.. I sense something bad goin to happen.. Plz b bec wen u feel hurt

today afternoon.. i felt alot on my left chest..

where my hearts lie.. i felt alot of pain onto it..

it is lik the feeling on the hearts.. so pain so love and so helpless..

i love the way u are.. i love how u are..

i never give up d.. so do u.. i hope i wish and i wait..

this morning.. i wake up..

i sen doremi to u.. always .. yesh and i saw wat he post onto ur wall..

if u dun lik it watfor u go and like.. dun be hard to ur own life le.. dun do bad to ur life le..

it is worthless doing so..

no point d.. dun b so degil le.. come back now ya.. come back..

it was a hard night lasnite.. no.. i din feel anything great about dis.. i am not feeling well

i cried as usual to sleep.. i wake up from tears..

come back now.. or late abit.. come.. i will always love u..

I

i always wake up from tears..

i always fall asleep in tears..

i had been a hard time for me.. for the past weeks and weeks and weeks to come..

i dunno why after u said the promise and yet u stil take the wrong turn..

i saw ur status said it is just simple sometim in life u cannot get wat u wan..

i knw i cant get u now..

i love u more than ever and everyday there is only increasing..

i knw myself n my heart..

i knw sometim i feel sienz about u..

i knw there is just a seconds i felt so and no more..

i know wat i nid to do now is wait..

i trust my sixth sense..

i hope i nvr fel me now..

DOREMI..

i miss u so much.. soooo muuuch now

im stil d one who concern..

yup..not only me concern about u..but tats d special me..

i know it and i gonna live with it..

i knw i am not the one that really let u felt wat ever it is..

bt in terms of tat watever is LOVE.. i love u and i knw it really hard and i know it well..

i love always.. plz do come bec soon..

i cried.. yesh i did cried.. i cried so hard for us.. i mean u..

i help to prevent everything that would possible happens happens..

i knw things would happens.. my sixth sense.. is always so just there..

told me wat i nid to do and do it immediately..

come back to me whn u had enuf out there..

i saw wat im not suppose to saw..

i am hurting myself everyday every seconds.. each time is abit more.. abit more than ever..

u are not lik wat u use to be..

u are friends with him agn.. ya him.. u knw wat he did to me.. hw much pain i suffer frm his words and how much he hates me and how much u supported me whn tat tim..

dun be a grass headed tat fall on both side..

if u reli lik be fwen with thm.. jz do so.. tel me.. i will knw the truth d..

he is adressing u dear now.. yup u agree to..

but whn u look bec to this ..

i hop u realize u make a mistake.. a great mistake..

yesh u will read this blog.. u will read it thru.. is a short or a long blog depends on hw long u wil b bec here.. the comfort zone..

do u knw.. hw much i love u..

i was thinking about u d whole day..

ua r elaughing with thm.. u are plying with another guy..

tat hurts alot..

no u din hurt me. is me myself thinking alots of u..

im d dumb idiot.. u nvr knw hw much i care.. hw much i love..

i reli do love u sooo much..

plz... b bec soon...

do u knw.. hw much i love u..

i was thinking about u d whole day..

ua r elaughing with thm.. u are plying with another guy..

tat hurts alot..

no u din hurt me. is me myself thinking alots of u..

im d dumb idiot.. u nvr knw hw much i care.. hw much i love..

i reli do love u sooo much..

plz... b bec soon...

do u knw.. hw much i love u..

i was thinking about u d whole day..

ua r elaughing with thm.. u are plying with another guy..

tat hurts alot..

no u din hurt me. is me myself thinking alots of u..

im d dumb idiot.. u nvr knw hw much i care.. hw much i love..

i reli do love u sooo much..

plz... b bec soon...

i saw u comment on their status..

i dunno why u wane do so..

it also things tat i dun lik..

u wane fwen w thm????

so lik..

after wat thy did.. are u pretending and stopping ur eager to b fwen w thm whn u are w me?? i love u..

i just ask this for a little did frm u.. u nvr listen...

i listen adn i live the way u ask for now..

no sms or wat so ever.. but why u wane do so??

plz b bec soon.. i knw i will forgiv u..

do u knw.. hw much i love u..

i was thinking about u d whole day..

ua r elaughing with thm.. u are plying with another guy..

tat hurts alot..

no u din hurt me. is me myself thinking alots of u..

im d dumb idiot.. u nvr knw hw much i care.. hw much i love..

i reli do love u sooo much..

plz... b bec soon...

i love u..

yesh i love my family but i love u d most..

two most important lady in my life are u and my mom.. yesh i love both of u..

i dissapointed u both and continue dissapointed u both again and again..

it fells sucks wen u told me in that tone that u will be with him.. i dun wan u gt hurt tat is why i choose.. to protect u.. in all ways..

i tried so hard cause i knw today wil come and i am afraid.. if everything was only for ur bes if only u could understand..

i love u the most..

im down

i dun get it..

im emotionally break down now..

i dunno y im so love u..

i wan to knw wat r u doin.. nt i always dun k about u..

i because i wan to know something.. i ask and wen i dun ask.. i look for it..

i dun talk on phone with u dis few months is because im busy.. i cn knw by lloking at

things.. tat onlytake me a few minute and u won feel lik reporting things to me..

i love u soooo much sooo much.. love u no matter wat

5th

我想你。。

i miss u。。

我将它发送给你。。

我真的。。啊啊。。真的没那么简单。。

我希望你会懂我。。我希望我真的能让你了解。。

我真的想要照顾你，但，又不敢打电话给你。。真的有点笨。。

害怕。。

也不知在帕什么。。

imu

kiss the rain..

i am learning this song.. i hope u like it.. u knw why..

i found tat in ur hp also gt dis song..

i reli miss u alot..

alot and alot more days of loneliness im alone facing.. i dun want..

love should not be this way and it not suppose in the love cycle of me n u..

i miss u alots.. i reli do love u.. i reli wan the person is u.. and only u..

a daywith u was't enuf .. u speak my language until someday.. some one step into ur life..

i hate thm alots.. i miss u bie

bie bie.. i miss u.,.

4TH

我就是不要让你受到今天的伤害，所以，我才放從你，让你去学习。。

知道，我知道你会华语了。。所以，这次没有翻译。。

傻瓜，不要再去受伤害了。。回来吧。。

这永远都会是你的避风港。。

我永远都会在这等。。好久啊。。

不知道要等到几时。。

我真的，好爱你。。好好爱。。没放弃过。。也没想不要爱。。

只是，我的方式用错了。。大错特错。。

不想去问，也不敢去问。。怕！！怕打扰了你。。

怕，让你觉得你自己很好了。。没人敢这样对你。。因为，你太值得人家去爱。。

那张脸。。那颗心。。我真的觉得我要很爱很爱你才行。。

13/05

今天的我，很好。。

为我的BIO加油。。因为星期一要考试了。。

我还是有流泪，我看到了大树叶。。

让我想起了，我要怎样帮你克服困难。。帮你克服障碍的人。。

你怕溜冰，我让我的身体当作定剑盘。。不在乎那一点点的痛，只要你没受伤。。

我相信你能，我每一次都相信。。相信你的能力。。相信你真的会做到。。

我刚才在那个冲凉房了哭。。想起了我们的一切。。

想起我要怎样面对我的生活。。我会准备好的。。为我的将来准备。。

后记！！！

喂。。我说过了。。那男的不是好人。。

他爱挣。。很会在爱情里扮演需要帮助的人。。没关系。。我知到我不是感情用事。。

这不是我一个人说了算。。有这样的证明。。宝贝。。等着瞧。。

尔。。。致以你，对说你。。假如说，你啊，在八月的时候你还没更她在一起。。

你有到古晋，哈哈哈哈。。等死吧！！！！！MAKULIU 超级白。。

你伤害了她，本少爷不会让你好过。。你等着瞧。。

2nd day

今天的我，也窝在厕所里痛哭。。哭得不想再哭了。。
很讨厌自己。。很讨厌自己的软弱。。不想要这样的我。。很不想。。

将头敲向那发黄的瓷砖。。在那么样的环境，释放自己。。
让我的苦完完全全的发泄在自己的身上。。

她，打给我。。说我所做的一切不对。。说我不了解他。。
我没有。。我真的已经面临绝路了。。我不知道该怎么办。。
我只知道要清醒。。
下午，还有考试。。

我真的错了。。错在哪？ 我真的不知道。。
我想让我们的感情走的更远。。更长久。。
我不知道。。我好想抱你。。我好想你。

眼泪，你不可以在流了。。你要好好的呆在眼睛里。。
我不要再流泪。。我要做更好的我。。我要。。当她回来时，我已经准备好了。。

10/05

这里会记载我的心情。。 她离开过后的我。。
我真的好傻。。在这时已经做好决定要继续的等下去。。
告诉怒，我真的很爱很爱她。。爱到无法抽离的地步。。