I really don't feel like sleeping for this past few days.. really not feel like to sleep

but when i get sllep i hope i never wake up.. really never had to wake up and for that.. i hope i always in my own world..

the reason is.. whenever i slept.. and i will wake and that another day.. another day of struggle, another day of frustration and another day of problem and all the other mind-solving problem are there..

so i will sleep when im tired.. and i hope i never ever do wake up again.. i nver need to wake up to face the day light.. to face the sunshine to face all the sad things that the world kindly offer as a reward of being alive.

i will remember the thrust i am having now.. the path and the feeling that i am having now. no matter how far i go.. i will take time look back and be amazed of myself how far have i bring myself to a new me.

keep going even u are down to your knee.. keep going even u are defected and keep going as u choose the path with willingness and not by any external pressure acting on u..

今晚，现在。。
我好不想睡。。好不想。。
我不想是不要明天的到来。。
可怕？不知道，我为我自己准备了B计划。。
但，没那勇气接受，没那么勇敢！！

没有人会让你感到自卑除非你准许。。
我很自卑，什么都要赢人。。不可有片刻的失败。。
我好伤心，但，却能怎样。。

不能了，我一定要。。
一定要定下来。。要努力。要勇敢的奋斗。。
慢了就给人踩着头过。。

记住记住这只能够感觉。。他会带你到非常难过的遥远。。
奋斗里也好，什么都好。记住！！！